The Duck's Nest

I'm sitting on the floor listening (and singing...) to country music. I must be going crazy. This floor is really comfortable, though.

Anywhoodles (that's so fun to say!), I confronted Chad about the whole hatemail thing, and we have it sorted out... sorta. He's probably lying to me, but we've decided to "just start all over" and "be friends". This is going to be interesting. He also told me he "knows now" that it wasn't hatemail; It was an argument that we had over Facebook e-mail. Both of us were arguing. Not hatemail. *sigh* Whatever. Screw him.

I never got the chance to write about TWIRP, and will take the chance to do so now:

It was the most mixed night I've ever had. Holy crap. I was SO excited, dinner at Kasey's was amazing, we were all having a good time, and then we got into the actual dance in the gym. LAME.  There weren't very many people actually in the gym; they were just standing outside of the gym talking because it was boring in there. Exciting. And Confused Blonde Girl was Confused about Nik because someone had a very interesting dream about him the night before. And it didn't help that he look so good. Yikes. Definitely not going back down that path. *shudder* But after more people started showing up and actually going in and dancing, it was pretty fun. Kasey and I ventured into the "mosh pit" a few times to dance (Mosh pit: The huge area in front of the DJ that is pretty much a grind-fest. Bow chica wow wow.), but mostly we were dancing on the fringes of the mosh pit with the group. For whatever reason, it's a lot easier for me to dance when I'm hanging out with Annemarie, so I was dancing with her group for a while. It was a lot of fun, but there was that stupid nagging loneliness for a while. It would go away for a while, but then come back. So annoying. Near the end of the night, I danced with Ryan and we kept dancing together for the rest of the time (like, an hour), which was interesting....in a good way, though. 8 ) Liz and Eric were giving me thumbs up from behind Ryan's back. Of course. Gotta love 'em. 8 P There's a ton of confusion as to whether or not we're going out or not... so I'd like to finally solve that tomorrow.

After the dance, Ali, Shannon, Abbie, Kasey and me went back to Kasey's and we all slept over. Ali, Shannon and I were up until five in the morning talking. We bitching about guys and just basically talking about anything and everything. 8 P So much fun. Abbie was trying to sleep, and kept going "shhh", so we 'shh'd her back. 8 P Talking forever was so worth being dead the next day.  

Most awkward moment of the night: Yelling Tanina's name to get her attention to wave at her, and having Dylan- Chad's "brother"- wave at me. I kinda wanted to sink into the floor. *head...floor* Chad, thankfully, was not there.

Funniest moment of the night: They played a polka song. Also, walking up to Shannon, Joe, Cody, Skittles, and Sammy to hear them talking about sex changes.  Joe: "Well, you could put a cork in the vagina! That'd fix things." Kasey and I walked right back away. 8 P 

I dunno. I'm really happy that I got to dance with Ryan...I do really like him. Just confused as to what comes next with us. 8 P This is gonna be fun. 8 P

Back to the present and recent past: 

I finally have all my classes for next year picked out. They're only due tomorrow. 8 P I'm talking three different English classes: English 11, Modern Lit X, and World Lit Y. SO EXCITED. I'm just a little annoyed because someone told me that because I'm in Applied Algebra Two this year, I can't be in Physics next year because I haven't taken Geometry yet. Someone else told me that I can be in Physics, as long as I'm in Geometry while I'm taking it. So confused. But they're both on my schedule now, so whatever. 8 P They can yell at me later. 

Oh, Pain Of Salvation! Much better than country music. <3 <3 <3 <3 

*sigh* I should probably go and practice my lovely English speech, so, in case I go tomorrow, I'll be at least somewhat ready. Jeez.  Speeches suck. Huh...maybe I should do my German homework tonight, too... Doctor Octa-Motherfucking-gonapus. Bleeh.

Seriously, I am thisclose to killing Chad. If he comes to Pep Band tonight, I am going to hit him with a tuba, like me and Becky planned in US History. WHY am I going to kill him? Oh, it's a good reason.

[THE SCENE: US History, Casetta's room. Becky is walking back to our (me, her, and Nik's) row of desks in the back of the room. Sarah is sitting in her desk. Sarah's nickname from Becky is Clarinet; Becky's is Trumpet]
BECKY: "Oh! Clarinet!" 
SARAH: "Trumpet?" 
BECKY: "I heard something 'bout you."
SARAH: "Oh god. What?" 
BECKY: "I heard that you've been sending Chad hatemail?" 
SARAH: "WHAT?! I haven't! Who did you hear that from?!" 
BECKY: "Peter told me that his brother, Ben, told him that Chad told him."
SARAH: "Are you kidding me?! That f*****!!!" 
BECKY: "I know! I didn't think you would do something like that!" 
SARAH: "I wouldn't! God! Why the hell is he telling people that?!
[General bitching, confusion, and freaking out with Becky ensues]
[END SCENE]

Yup. Let's just tell people that I'm sending you hatemail, Chadford. Cuz I would totally do that. Why does he even need to make shit like that up?! Seriously, what an ass. I COMPLETELY understand why his last girlfriend hated him for a long time. "Oh, let's be friends!" IT'S REALLY HARD TO BE FRIENDS WHEN YOU MAKE UP RUMORS ABOUT THE OTHER PERSON, DUMBASS!!!! Oh, you just wait. Next, he'll be calling me a whore. I can hear it now. >.<  That fucker. 

I'm gonna go to Pep Band now. Farewell.

DUUUUUUUUUUDE!!!!! IT'S FREAKING SNOWING OUTSIDE!!!! AHHHH!!!! EXCITEMENT!!!! 

And TWIRP is tonight, so that's pretty freaking awesome as well. 8 ) I'm just excited about the snow because it snowed on Homecoming, and Homecoming was awesome, so I'm taking this as a sign from the Gods of School Dances that TWIRP will be equally awesome, if not better. 8 ) I like run-on sentences. They make me feel warm and fuzzy inside. And like Ms. Hunter is sitting somewhere thinking, "My Bad Grammar senses are tingling! To the Grammar Cave!" Oh, English class. <3

Anywho. I'm so PUMPED for tonight!! *squee* The only awkward thing about this dance is when people ask me if I have a date, and I have to tell them no, because he dumped me. Ouch. But Kasey and I are planning on making use of our single-ness by dancing with a ton of random (*cough*hot & older*cough*) guys tonight. And I have one guy on my list that isn't random. ; ) But....yeah. Excitement!! 

Random stories from yesterday: 

1. So in German class (where all my favorite stories come from), we were learning clothing and were about to play a game. I was turned around and talking to Ryan (who now sits right behind me, with Simon next to him). I totally forgot what we were talking about, but I made a gun with my fingers and "shot" him, saying, "Bang!" Ryan goes, "No, no, no. This is German class. It'd be "gebang!" Made my day. 8 P 

2. While we were playing the game (a person from each team goes up and acts out/draws the vocab word that was picked. People try to guess it) in German class, it was my turn to go up, along with two Juniors. One is short and hilarious, the other is tall and awkward, and neither of them have glasses. I was the only one up there with glasses. The word that gets picked: "die Brille". The glasses. Umm...WIN. Bruno, the short kid, started yelling, "What?! She's got an unfair advantage!! That is so unfair!" So when Schuth said to start, I just whipped off my glasses and held them up while the guys were trying to draw as fast as they could. 8 P 

3. I had another pep band last night. Muahahaha!! Liz and Annemarie weren't there, so it was me hanging out with Eric and Steve. Oh, the perverted jokes! I love band. <3 OH! And the basketball game was against Waukesha West, and Kasey's Homecoming date, Connor, was there! I waved at him when he walked past the band. He waved back. Abbie and I were very excited about it. Haha.

4. Mickey and Tricia were here last night when Steve dropped me off after pep band. YAY! They hung out for a while and goofed off with me and Hannah. At one point, Hannah was eating a giant bowl of ice cream, and Tricia tells her that she's going to be fat when she wakes up in the morning. Like, grossly obese. We were making all sorts of jokes about it. I love my family. 8 P 

5. The lists of who made it into South Select and North Choir  were up yesterday in the choir room and both Ali and I made it into North!!! *parties* I am so happy!! I thought they for sure wouldn't put  me in North Choir after my crappy audition. But... YAY! And Kasey, Jessi, and Abbie all made it too. 8 D 

6. Not really from yesterday, but it was the other day. Mickey and Tricia invited me to go with them to see Epica perform at The Rave next Friday and... OMG EXCITED!!! We have VIP tickets! *dances around* 

I forgot how much I love Brother Firetribe. They put me in a good mood. 8 ) 

And....just....I'm really, uber (umlaut) excited for tonight and happy in general.   

Is it really that hard to take a nap in this house? *sigh* I've been exhausted from today (yay second semester...), and freezing, so I decided to curl up on the loveseat with my Epic Blanket of Awesome (it's red with black pawprints on one side, and black on the other and, amazingly enough. long enough for me), Sophie's Choice by Willaim Styron, and my iPod dock. Oh, and Melvin. Whilst listening to the clarinet quartet of the Belgian National Orchestra (totally not a band geek) and attemping to get into Sophie's Choice more, I feel into one of those weird little half-sleeps. Like, where you are asleep, but you are still listening to everything around you. So, I have clarinet quartet mixing into my dreams of Twirp. I was seriously dreaming about Twirp! How pathetic! 
 
And it was a weird dream too. The dress that I got yesterday (which is really cute) was waaaay weird and different. Not cool. Also, I was slow-dancing with Ryan. O.o Buh?! So confused. Self, what are you trying to tell me?!?! Uhg! I mean, the guy is my friend....and...just... *headdesk* 

ANYwho. My mum came in while I was sleeping and started talking to me, which woke me up a little. Something about not having chicken for dinner? Ah well. And she asked me if I was sleeping. No, Mum. I'm totally just laying on the couch with my eyes closed and not responding to you because I'm wide awake. Yeah. And then she started turning out the lights, which woke me up even more. I would have never woken up if I fell back to sleep if she had turned out the lights. O.o 

Of course, right after my mom leaves to go to Frosh orientation with Hannah, Joe calls me. 
Joe: "Hey, can you do me a really big favor?"
Me: "What?" 
Joe: "Call me and wake me up in ten minutes. I'm going to take a nap at my computer."
Me: "But...but...I'M taking a nap...."
Joe: "Please?"
Me: *sigh* "Fine."
Joe: "If you don't call me in exactly 10 minutes, you're going to have to make it up to me." 
Me: "Fine. If I don't call you in 10 minutes to wake you up, I'll find a regular t-shirt and write on it with red Sharpie, "Joe is the king of the universe," and wear it all day tomorrow." 
Joe: "Really?!" 
Me: "Yup. Goodnight." 
Joe: "Bye."   
Needless to say, I called him after I tried to nap for 10 minutes. I was too awake to sleep again. 8 ( 

And now, I am going to relax while no one is home. Thank you, Frosh orientation. <3

Yesterday  was the last day of exams. THANK YOU, WHOEVER PLANNED EXAMS!! And now we have a three day weekend. Hallelujah. <3 Tuesday is the first day of second semester, which will be awesome. Why? Because that means that I have Bio with Drenzek, who taught my summer school science and is probably one of the most awesome teachers EVER. Gonna miss having Jurwicz, though. She's a good Hippie teacher. 8 ) 

Anywho. Pep band last night was a girls hockey game. Hockey pep bands just seem so much more fun. Especially when it's rather deserted in there because exams just finished that day, you're not practically standing on top of the person next to you, and there's no one throwing change and TACOS down the sousaphones (It happened last year. Mr. P was out for blood afterwards). 

Steve came to pick me up because Mum was working, Dad isn't going to be home until tonight (YESSSS!!!!!) and I can't drive. That boy has good timing; he got there right when I got upstairs from the basement with the laundry. Ha. We got to AHS about half an hour early. 8 P  There, we discovered that the t-shirts came in!! HOORAH!! (Now I just have to pay for mine...). They are SO COOL! 

Eric, Annemarie, Brooke, and Brooke's cousin showed up a little after we did, and Annemarie realized that she forgot her piccolo. Typical Annemarie. 8 P So she called her mom to bring it, and I went to go wait with her in the commons. While we're waiting, guess who arrives? >.< Annemarie knows how angry I am at him, and we were joking that I would give him the finger when he walked in. I wanted to, but didn't. Instead, I didn't even look at him, and when he was walking to the band room, I turned around and pretended to be choking him from a distance. Of COURSE, he turned around RIGHT THEN. We made eye contact for a second after I pretended that I hadn't just been wanting to choke him. It was awkward.

Annemarie's mom showed up with her piccolo a few minutes later, and we were really late for pep band. Mrs. Z knew we were there, though, so...whatever. 8 P When we got back to the band room, guess who was sitting right across the room from me? GAH! He then moved and was even more in my line of sight. I was sharing a music binder with Hailey and Christine, whenever I looked up he was right. freaking. THERE. And he was always looking at me...probably because he realized that I want his head on my mantle. 8 ) Ha. 

The game was a lot of fun. 8 ] I was sitting with Annemarie, Eric, Big Steve, and Little Steve (Little Steve is the one who always gives me rides to/from band). 
Highlights of the night:
-Bad dancing (me and Annemarie, mostly)
-Perverted jokes
-Discussing how everyone has a twin, but we eat them in the womb. Yummy!
-Eric buying puck #69 to throw (this is how the perverted joke started)
-A random guy buying ALL of the pucks to throw, and giving them to the band. My freshman, Brad, won $30 because of it. Best quote about it? "He can't win! He's a freshman!" Haha.
-Asking Big Steve which is better: woodwinds or brass? "Strings!" Eric and I accepted it as a valid answer. haha. 
-Little Steve: [in an old man voice] "You know, back in my day, we didn't have females! We had men...and attractive men!" Cue everyone giving him weird looks. This was followed by a discussion of how 90% (I think that was it) of males in college would rape a women if they knew they wouldn't get caught. O.o I'm a little scared.
-Eric knocking down his own trumpet, and Little Steve yelling "TROMBONE DOWN!". Oh, the Admirals game...goooood times...
-Being able to RELAX and let loose.  
-Two-person drumline cadence on the way back to North. It was just one guy on tenors and one guy on a snare. Epic fail. 
-Evil plotting. That's what Annemarie and I do at hockey games. Muahahaha! 
-Annemarie: [Looking at the other team's uniform colors] "You know, black and green are so much more intimidating than white and red..." 
Eric: "Yes, but we blend in with the ice!" 
Fun times. 8 )
         
( Anger )*exhale* Ok. Got that off my chest. I feel better now. 8 P 

Phew. Now that that's over with....

Good Points of Today:

~Shannon brought Power Puff Girls stickers to school. My phone (Melvin) now has Buttercup stuck on the back. 8 ] Cody's phone is also covered in Buttercup stickers, and he also had a heart on it. He took the heart off during lunch and stuck it on my arm *confused*. Skittles also got a sticker- a huge, yellow one that says "I'm special!" on it. Haha. Very fitting for him. 8 P

~I found my ducky earrings and wore them today. 8 ] Need I say more? 

~The English exam was, as a friend of mine would say, a cake walk. It was reeeeeally easy.

~I'm gonna be home alone for a while today. FINALLY.

~Finished the book Women of the Pleasure Quarters: The Secret History of the Geisha by Lesley Downer after my English exam. It was extremely awesome, so I started it again. Haha. It gave a really good history of Geisha, but I might have to compare and contrast it to Geisha by Liza Dalby, for kicks. haha

~Jeff Buckley's voice. LOVELOVELOVE. The song "Forget Her" is amazing.

~Joe might be coming over later to study for U.S. History later. YAY.

~I'm just in a good mood today. I'm not really that depressed or upset or angry. It's just like..."Ok, it's over now. Chances of us getting back together aren't very good, so just...forget it. *hums "Forget Her" by Jeff Buckley*"  

~The kokyu. Umm, hell yes. Ha. I want to learn to play that.

First thing first: Chad broke up with me last night over the phone. I'm sick of typing the story, so I'm gonne leave it at that. I cried most of last night away and was really angry and upset for most the day and all of last night. Chad's depressed too. I'm a little confused, although he explained his reasons to me earlier tonight.

ANYWAYS.
I had my choir audition for North today and I am so mad at myself. Uhg. I don't feel like going into detail with anything tonight, so...yeah. Sorry. Let's just say that I hate the second sopranos.

Annemarie is an amazing friend. She knew I was upset today, so she was just trying to make me laugh a little while ago on FB Chat. We now have a new language: Germenglish. We're combining the German and English days of the week....
Sonday = Sonntag + Sunday (Annemarie's)
Saturday + Samstag = Samserday (Mine)
Freitag + Friday = Freiday (it sounds EXACTLY like Friday. 8 P Annemarie's)
Dienstag + Tuesday = Tdeinsday (Mine) 
Mittwoch + Wednesday = Mittwendstag (Mine. The "w" sounds like a "v', just so you know....)
It's fun.

EXAMS START TO-FREAKING-MORROW!!!!!!!!!!! CRAAAAAP!!! German, then Band, then lunch, then English. The crazies who reside over this kind of stuff decided that the exam periods are 75 MINUTES LONG. GAH. But on the bright side, we have 15 minute passing periods.... *shrug*

Yeah. I need to eat some food and eat. Farewell.

In choir last week, we started some new songs. Woot!! They're the songs we'll be doing for the concert at the end of the year, for exams next week (!!!!!!!) and for those lucky few who get to go to Solo and Ensemble. Right now, we have three pieces: a madrigal (Seek Sweet Content), a barber shop quartet (Mr. Sandman), and some weird Russian folk song (Kalinka (Russian title is Russian)). Right now, I'm really loving Seek Sweet Content, because I can SING it. HA!! It's ridiculously better than O Lovely Catalina, which was last year's madrigal. I hated it. Anyways...

This year, for choir, I decided that I was going to try and get on Ms. J's good side and be a good little soprano and sing out and volunteer to sing one on a part when it's offered....and that's not very often that we do that. But for whatever reason, THIS is the week that Ms. J and Ms. B started to offer that! HOORAY!!

So on Monday, Ms. B was at a funeral, so Ms. J took over the class. HOLY CRAP, DO I MISS HAVING HER TEACH THE CLASS! IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY! 
Anyways. We were working on Seek Sweet Content, and she asked for anyone who wanted to sing one on a part. Ali just practically jumped up. She's basically trying to prove to the choir teachers that she's GOOD (and she seriously is). A second soprano sophomore named Kirsten also stood up, and my legs just kind of...stood up for me. It took me a few lines to get my volume up, but in the end, it actually sounded decent- me, Kirsten, and Ali. Best of all, Ms. J thought it sounded good too.

Yesterday, when Ms. B was back, we sang one on a part again. It was kind of funny because I ended up singing with Ali and Kirsten again. I totally screwed that up, though. I rushed the last part! Anywho. Two more girls in each section stood up- Andrea, who sits next to me, and a really pale and fragile looking girl with a beastly voice in the sopranos; Julia, who has a really amazing voice, and another girl whose name I don't know in the altos; and Kirsten's little freshman sister and I don't remember who else from the seconds. After we all did our Three-On-A-Part's, Ms. J had us go in front of the room and sing it altogether in a semicircle. It was epic with three on a part, so with seven on a part....oh man!

Now it's pretty much my goal to get into the madrigal for Solo and Ensemble. Haha. Ali "borrowed" a copy of Sing Sweet Content, and I made two copies of it- one for me, and one for her. I'm basically going to practice it until I have it down note-for-note and can act and make myself good enough for freaking Solo and Ensemble.

ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT NOTE....

The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold is fucking amazing. I started reading it yesterday after school and I was just totally sucked in by it. HOLYSHIT! Everything about that book is just perfect. It may even be better than Memoirs of a Geisha, which I am watching right now. *Love* But...The Lovely Bones.....*is in awe*.


Yeah....so I'm starving and want to finish watching the movie, so I shall update more later. 

Today in choir, we had an AHS alumni sing for us as a preview for One Night Only (Broadway Company AHS choir alumni showcase) and the guy that was there is a Sophomore at Chicago and he sang "Run Away With Me" from the musical "The Unauthorized Autobiography of Samantha Brown".
I AM TOTALLY ADDICTED TO THIS SONG!!!  It almost made me cry in choir. Haha.

Ok, so the good news is that my dad finally has a legit job. Hooray. He'll be gone during the week and home on weekends. Thank freaking god. He's leaving tomorrow morning and won't be back until, like, Friday night or Saturday. Something like that.

I can't believe that it's 2010. Where the hell is the time going? I feel like it was just yesterday that it was the beginning of 2009. God. 2010 just is sucking already. -.- I keep finding things out that I don't want to know! Like that Chad supposedly asked out both Jessi and Hailey at the beginning of the school year...and, you know, I was single then and he's supposedly liked me since band camp. Uhh.....not feeling too great about that. Totally doubting a lot of things right now. I'm seeing him on Wednesday, though, so I guess things can get sorted out or whatever then. *sigh* 

Went shopping with Ali and Kasey today. A lot of fun, but I'm really tired and still kind of have a headache. Sleeping over at Ali's with a bunch of other girls in about an hour. Should be fun, if I can cheer up. 8 / So you know what? I'm gonna listen to Your Basic Tune & Lube, and see if that makes me feel any better. What's Your Basic Tune & Lube? A podcast, but of weird little songs that the guy who composed the Wind Ensemble's commission piece and his friend wrote . It's rather amusing. Best song they have is "Hostess". Ha. Dammit. Now I want a Hostess cupcake. 8 ( "Friend Stuff" is another good song. Anywho. Look them up on iTunes. Good stuff.

I just realized that I need to kidnap a bag of chips from the kitchen for the sleepover. Also, we have to pick up Abbie. 8 / I don't really want her there tonight cuz she's been pissing everyone off....but she's coming, I guess.

  AHH!!! FINALLY!!! Me, Joe, and Cody are finally going to film the Herpes commercial for the CROMS! It's about time! The only reason we're doing this now is because Joe got a cute little video camera for Christmas. Yes, it's cute. 8 P Also, he got a Binary watch. IT IS SO FUCKING COOL!!! But it's making him time travel. O.o He's ALWAYS either two minutes ahead of/behind me, or a minute ahead of/behind me. Maybe he needs to work on his math skills... Haha.

Christmas was pretty cool. 8 ) Mum, Dad, Hannah and I went over to Mickey and Tricia's apartment on Christmas Eve to have dinner and it ended with Mum and Dad having a Guitar Hero face-off. O.o Guitar Hero is the kind of game that I can't stand, and the kind Dad could get addicted to, if given the chance. I wanted to kill Tricia whenever she joked about getting him it for Christmas, basically. She let me borrow a TON of DVDs from her, though! ^_^ Hard Candy, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Requiem for a Dream, The Number 23, and Memento. Her and I watched Hard Candy together when she first moved in with us, so I know that one is AWESOME. The others? Not too sure about them. Ah well. I'll have to watch them soon. 8 ) 

Best Quotes of the night:
"My life is wat too settled for a 19 year old. *pause* I should be on drugs. And I should have been pregnant by the time I was 16" -Tricia
"'Twas the night before Christmas....and the Jews were about!" -Joe

Mick and Tricia came over to our house the next day and we did the whole "Family Christmas" thing. Wee. Haha. Hannah, being an epic little sister who knows me well, bought me a pearl necklace as a present. PEARLS! I adore pearls. <3 Hannah = awesome child. She finally got her laptop....after everything else was opened and it was just that one big box. Haha.  "AFTER 40-SOME DAYS!!!" I'm getting this feeling, though, that the laptop is going to be a bad thing in the end. I haven't really seen her much since she got it. She's just holed up in her room. Sounds a lot like the two children that preceded her.... Fuck....

OH! I finally got Tricks by Ellen Hopkins and I finished it yesterday morning. Haha. It was sooo good, but... it was an...interesting...topic to write about. Teen prostitution. O.o Ha. Also, on a completely different train of thought, Tricia gave me a Fountain of Death. Yeah, you read that right. A Fountain of Death. Her and Mick walked in the door with a huge box full of other presents, and this medium-sized weird pink box. Tricia went straight to the bathroom, was in there for about five minutes, and comes back out with the box. She goes, "Sarah, don't you dare knock this over! Open it right now." So I opened it, and the box sings. *eye twitch* Inside the box was one of those little stone Zen fountains. Tricia flipped a switch in the back of it, and it started flowing with red water. Haha. Best gift ever. 8 P  

Joe and his dad kidnapped me around eight on Christmas night. His dad needed to go to a meeting, and was taking Joe with, so Joe invited me to come along. We ended up sitting in his dad's office at the nursing home making phone calls for the Risk Tournament on Monday. That's going to be crazy. We were playing hangman for a while, and he was doing one for me where the first word was "turbulent" and the second word was "ti_es". TIMES sure as hell didn't come to mind for me. I felt SO stupid when he told me what it was. Ha. I'm only a lowly blonde, though. 8 P 

Most of yesterday was spent heavy-duty cleaning my room and rearranging my bookshelf. Ha. I have a floor again. ^_^ It was soooo frustrating, though! I had to shorten the height between two shelves to fit some of my taller books a shelf up, and the short shelf is being used for your standard paperback novel, but there's ONE that's about a centimeter too tall to fit on the shelf! However, three books that were too tall for the "tall" self before, now fit perfectly. *headdesk* Figures. 8 P 

AHH! I don't know why I didn't think to mention this until just now, but we finished the floor in the living room on Christmas Eve Eve, and we got the loveseat, TV, and TV stand in there on Christmas Eve. *Huge grin* Now we just have to go though everything to decide what stays and what goes, and buy/cut/stain molding for the floor. Seriously, the living room being live-able again is the best thing ever. ^_^ It means I can have people over again! Haha. 8 P  

Gaah. As much as I like Ryan, he needs to stay out of my dreams. Really. TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW has his super-blonde self appeared in my dreams. BOTH TIMES I gave him a hug. And last night, we were basically hitting on each other, he said we should go out, I told him that I have a boyfriend, and he was, needless to say, uber (umlaut) pissed and upset. Yikes. I felt really bad when I woke up. It  was a little pathetic. Also, WTF self? What are you trying to tell me, exactly? 

On a completely different note, there was a dance last night. WOOT!! It was just weird, though. Whoever decides dance names called it "iDance" and....it was all techno music except for three rock 'n' roll/metal/headbanger songs. THREE. *headdesk* At the same time, it was pretty cool, though. They split the North Campus commons/cafeteria basically in half, and they had these big, long, black pieces of paper hanging from the ceiling to the floor, closing off the dance floor. On the sides of the paper facing the dance floor, it was painted with glow in the dark paint. There were black lights, glow sticks, and it was just...cool and very strange, all at the same time. Ha. Joe's dad had dumped me, Joe, Shannon. Cody, and Gio off at Wal-Greens about a half-hour before the dance started, so we (read as: Joe) shopped around Wal-Greens for a little bit and we walked to school. Which is a good half-hour away. PLUS! It was cold and snowing. And I didn't listen to my mom and bring my coat. Figures. I met up with Chad at the dance we danced together for basically the whole night (the dance was from 8:30 to 11:30) except for the first half-hour-ish where I wouldn't dance. Ha. Me + dancing = fail. Band geeks can't dance! Common knowledge! 

"Knowledge" is an awkward word to spell! It doesn't look right at all.... 
 
So after the dance, Gio, Shannon, Joe and I went to Joe's house to play Risk and we were playing until about 4:30 in the morning. I didn't get home until about 4:40 am. In the game, Joe was Asia, Shannon was South America, Gio was North America, and I was Europe. I surrendered about 30 minutes before the rest of the game finished. Shannon surrendered after Joe turned on their alliance, and Gio claimed that he was going to kick Joe's ass, but then surrendered a second later. FAIL. Haha. It was a lot of fun, though. Joe wants to play next time with six people. We'd be there until midnight the next day, then. Haha. 

I'm going to Chad's house again after school tomorrow, and that'll be the last time I see him until after Christmas break. *sad face* Aaaand after break I get to meet his "brother" Dylan and his "sister" Jamie, who is dating Dylan. Not at all looking forward to that, to be honest. It's going to be painful. REALLY painful. Like....child-birth painful. Ouch.

Yup. So I'm really tired, and am going to head off to bed for a POINTLESS TWO-DAY SCHOOL WEEK. Arrowhead, just give us Monday and Tuesday off, will ya?! Hannah is already off for Christmas Break! *pouts* Anywho. Sleep = need. Goodnight.

Me: Oh, Mum! by the way, I'm going to Joe's house after the dance tonight for a Risk Party.
Mum: You mean the board game, right? Not a Risky Behavior party?
Me: Yeah, Mum. There's gonna be heavy drinking, drugs, unprotected sex, and we're going to drink each other's blood after we do some LSD.
Mum: That sounds like an AIDs risk....
Me: Yeah....It'll be fun!
 
For the record, I meant the board game. Haha. 8 P

Chad and I talked over Facebook earlier tonight, and it wasn't starting off well, but I told him that we should just pretend like this rough patch didn't happen and get over it...and it worked. O.o We had a completely normal conversation after that ("normal" by our standards. We aren't exactly sane) and made plans to hang out after school on Tuesday. I feel like a huge weight has been taken off of me. Seriously, I'm not even remotely pissed off or anything right now, just content and tired. I don't want to deal with school tomorrow.
Tuesday is going to be a good day. It will be. Why? Well, we're getting our class rings (yay!), it's the last day of swimming in gym (double yay!) and I'll be seeing Chad. 8 ) Oh yes, it shall be good. 8 )

On a completely unrelated topic, I love Memoirs of a Geisha. Haha. I watched the movie last night for the first time in ages and totally remembered why I adore it. Especially the scene my icon is from. Just...the whole end of the movie is lovely. Also, the Chairman. ICH LIEBE IHM. Haha. He's probably the best fictional character ever, and the actor who plays him in the movie is perfect. More men in tthe world should be like the Chairman. Ha.

Yeah, I need to try and sleep. It's one of those nights where you're really tired, but you just can't sleep. Think I'll go continue reading The Time Traveler's Wife till I fall asleep. Excellent book.

GAAAH. This is the SECOND TIME I have to write this fucking entry because I HIT A FUCKING BUTTON AND LOST THE PAGE.

( The F-bomb is dropped many, many times.... )

Gaaaaah! My dreams are being screwy again. >.<

( "Dreams get spleen cancer."  )

This is just going to be one big weird mind-draining post. Meaning, I'm just gonna babble on about some of the things that are on my mind. Sound good? Ok. Let's do this thing.

I'm pretty pissed at myself right now. I gave my English speech on Truman Capote on Friday, and got a D- on it (WebGrader is good for checking on how badly you failed something...). It was completely my own fault, though. I didn't have my overheads with me hadn't practiced much either. Also, according to Nik, I said "umm" 37 times. And on top of that, I was pacing the front of the room. We're supposed to cross the room once or twice, but I paced. It was so freaking bad. I might have to beg to Hunter for some extra credit to make it up. Or, you know, bribe her. Dunno if that would work on her, though.

German is continuing to be amusing. We're learning body parts, and learned "Head, Shoulders, Knees, and Toes" auf Deutsch. We stood in a circle in the back on the room and sang it/did the actions. So amusing. OH! And Ryan/"Frank"/ex-"Otto" just turned 15 the day before Thanksgiving...and he's a sophomore. Umm, woah? Smart kid, much? Ha. I dunno...he always seemed like he was 16. Whatever, though. He's still pretty awesome. But we don't sit next to each other anymore, which is depressing. I don't have someone to talk to anymore! Schuth got smart and moved him to the other side of the room.

It really needs to snow a lot more. It snowed a little the past week, but it didn't really stick. The weather people are saying that there is supposed to be a few inches tonight, but I'm not feeling it. Err, yeah, it is freaking cold out, but still, if the snow hasn't stuck the past few times it snowed, I doubt it will now. This is just sad; it doesn't feel like December without snow.

Pain Of Salvation just may be the most amazing band to ever create music. I got another album by them today: "Entropia". Oh. My. GOD. I fell in love again. Haha. They just completely blow me away with every album I listen to. "Remedy Lane", "The Perfect Element, Part I", and now, "Entropia"... they're all just totally perfect in their own way. It makes it really hard to listen to anything else. /fangirling

Things are still going pretty good with Chad, but... I dunno. It's weird not seeing him everyday. With other boyfriends, they're just...there. In my classes, sitting with us at lunch, walking me to my classes, whatever. The point is, I saw them all the time. But with Chad at North, it's just...weird. Ok, North isn't that much of a distance away, but it's not like I have any classes up there, or have any chance of seeing him during the day. Well, that last part isn't necessarily true... I have swimming for gym for the next four B days, so I will be up at North... but
yeah. I dunno. And it just seems like he's mad at me. GAHH!!! CALM DOWN!!! Hoo. Ok. Breathe. Don't read too far into things that aren't even there. Ok. It's all good.

Going back to the topic of snow: I'm half-wanting a snow day tomorrow. It's not going to happen, but one can try to pray to the Snow Gods, and do some sort of mystical moonlight ritual in the middle of a field with the field pixies. Hahaha. But a snow day probably isn't going to happen, even though some of us are rooting for it.

I'm really, really tired, so I'm going to go try to sleep. I miss it when I wasn't always tired.

So (I was about to say "this morning", and then realized that it is still morning...) earlier, when I got out of the shower and was getting dressed, I was listening to some music. Jeff Buckley has a rather smexy voice. Haha "Hallelujah" was playing, and I remembered some random thing that happened with me, Joe, and his dad.
Joe's dad was driving me and Joe home from a midnight shopping adventure at Wal-Mart one night, and Joe's dad was actually in a good mood and goofing around with us. He was listening to Il Divo, I think, and the song "Hallelujah" was playing. Joe and I both have a thing for the song, so we asked him to turn it up. So he did. REALLY loudly. And he rolled down the windows.
Picture this in your mind: A quiet, small village, houses and a few small businesses on either side of the main drag through. Lots of houses, actually. Also, it's about 2 am. Then picture a pedophile van (me and Joe's nickname for his van) rolling through this village (at the speed limit, which is, like, 25 MPH), with the windows down, BLASTING "Hallelujah". Funny mental image.
It's even more funny in real life. 8 ) Haha.
Sorry, just thought I'd share.

This is my 60th entry. Holy crap. However, the rest of this entry has nothing to do with that.

( It all catches up to you when you slow down )

Ahh, Thanksgiving: one of the most pointless holidays ever. If you happen to be a newspaper deliverer, this day is your hell. And- heaven forbid- if you happen to be the child of a newspaper deliverer, like Hannah and I are, then you have some shitty luck.
The newspapers on Thanksgiving are horrendous. They're stuffed with Black Friday ads and such and it's enough to make you want to slit your wrists (in my case, the frigging newspapers took care of that for me). They're big and heavy enough as just one paper, so it's even more fun to have to bundle them in fives and stack them on carts.
Bet you all can't guess what I did last night...

( About 1690 newspapers later... )